can't concentrate any more!
daddy's words keep repeating in my mind....
how come my life is just like a tragedy, what is going wrong with this life?!

actually, since mummy passed away, i should'd already known that life ahead of me won't be easy!
but I trust you, daddy! I think we could rely on each other!
......

one thing after another...
I am so tired!
am I only 23?? I wonder!?

May peace be with me~

Can I trust you! this time?
Will you really gonna to face all these coming difficulties with me ?
you really wish to do so?
I trust that you are being honest with me to say so, and i know you do mean it~
but it is always tough to keep a promise!
esp. such a heavy one~ n you have already got tones upon your shoulder~
am i being so selfish to keep you ?
if i truly love you, should I just leave?


Mummy, I wish you are still here~
I miss you so so so much!

can't sleep again~ i think i must have insomnia~

exams~ harp exams~ application to master course next yr~ future~ career~ n~ again, the already lost beloved~

........... everything just keep popping up in my tiny little brain~ i think it is gonna to run out of space very soon~ in a few second maybe~

where is my next stop? paris? london? or back to china or HK?maybe shouldn't think about this now. got to get through the exam this yr first~ then harp exam, then london-milan course~ maybe would have time to have a good think about that in the summer~

mum's b'day on sunday! i always said never regret~ cos it is pointless! but this would be my regret for the rest of my life~ before she passed away, i have not been with her for her b'day for 5 yrs!

 

long time havent updated my xanga, too much had been happened to me and my family~

i started to realize that i prefer stay in the uk rather than going home~  cos every time i am home, i would need to consider so much n try to sort out things which is far too complicated.

failed one of my assignment! i must admit that i didn;'t put enough efford in it, as that was due in when i was having my difficult time. but i am not trying to excuse myself. anyway, got to work hard for that exam! don;'t wanna come back in the summer for any resits~

bank holiday today~ miss kit is home~ in bed~ doing nothing~ really wanna go out shopping, but the weather is not good enough!  have wasted the nice weather for the last 2 weeks~ should'd been out n enjoy the kisses from the sun!